Yes, its been 6 weeks, and that means so many things.Well,yeah it means the dreaded 6 week appointment but more importantly that our little boy has been home with us brighten our days for a whole 6 weeks. It seems so hard to imagine him not being here with us. We have truly been blessed with this life, this healthy, beautiful life. There have definitely been times of frustration, sleep deprivation will do that for ya, but there have been so many more times of pure joy.
The mornings when I put him in the bed to snuggle, the smiles that are flowing a little more freely these days, the coos that are barely coming but man does he try, the long gazes while he peacefully feeds,the times when he gets so excited all he knows to do is move uncontrollably, and yes even those times when hes crying-these are times that we truly cherish, and bring so much happiness and meaning to our lives.
Those beautiful hazel eyes, that are looking more and more green every day, lashes that go for days, a little button nose just perfect for Eskimo kisses, a perfect smoocher that has learned all too well the benefits of a pout, and hands that fit so perfectly into daddy and I's...
he has officially become our lives and our reason for being.
He has grown amazingly in 6 weeks, physically and cognitively. What a joy it has been to watch him grow so, we have been blessed with the best gift....the gift of life.
Which leads me to another thing six weeks brings.....work. Yes, the time has arrived all too quickly for me to return to work, preterm labor took a nice chunk out of my medical leave so I must return to work, and I don't think I have ever had something break my heart so badly. I've cried for days, but I will get through it, I will just have even more of a gift waiting for me when I return home to my beautiful family.We have been blessed however, with grandmothers who are more than willing to visit (they would not call it sitting) with him a few days a week. With the home care, I can go see my patients and hopefully be home by 1 or 2, and will not be working every day of the week. So yes, I have to work but it could be so much worse, it still doesn't make it any easier on the heart strings to have to leave my baby boy at home, he grows so fast....so Monday will brings many tears from mommy and a heavy heart so please keep me in your prayers.
The mornings when I put him in the bed to snuggle, the smiles that are flowing a little more freely these days, the coos that are barely coming but man does he try, the long gazes while he peacefully feeds,the times when he gets so excited all he knows to do is move uncontrollably, and yes even those times when hes crying-these are times that we truly cherish, and bring so much happiness and meaning to our lives.
Those beautiful hazel eyes, that are looking more and more green every day, lashes that go for days, a little button nose just perfect for Eskimo kisses, a perfect smoocher that has learned all too well the benefits of a pout, and hands that fit so perfectly into daddy and I's...he has officially become our lives and our reason for being.
He has grown amazingly in 6 weeks, physically and cognitively. What a joy it has been to watch him grow so, we have been blessed with the best gift....the gift of life.
Which leads me to another thing six weeks brings.....work. Yes, the time has arrived all too quickly for me to return to work, preterm labor took a nice chunk out of my medical leave so I must return to work, and I don't think I have ever had something break my heart so badly. I've cried for days, but I will get through it, I will just have even more of a gift waiting for me when I return home to my beautiful family.We have been blessed however, with grandmothers who are more than willing to visit (they would not call it sitting) with him a few days a week. With the home care, I can go see my patients and hopefully be home by 1 or 2, and will not be working every day of the week. So yes, I have to work but it could be so much worse, it still doesn't make it any easier on the heart strings to have to leave my baby boy at home, he grows so fast....so Monday will brings many tears from mommy and a heavy heart so please keep me in your prayers.
3 comments:
Ok so I am officially crying now. I cant believe he is 6 weeks old already, make him slow down till Aunt Tara can come and soak up more of his newborn-ness. The pictures are so good, I hope his Aunt and Uncle and Cousin will be getting some in the mail soon (hint)!
I know its got to be hard on you to go back to work, I also want you to know that I will be praying for ya on Monday morning and that we love ya. And that litte boy will be waiting with open arms for you when you walk back in that door! (Silas says that is his favorite part of the day, when he opens the door and Jolee gets so excited screaming and running to him) I know he cant do that know, but he will soon!
And I meant to end with and that will be what gets you thru your day. But I had a little button pusher helper and didnt get to finish, sorry! WOW and sorry its so long!
he's is SOO precious pammie! i just love all your pics.
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